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Adieu, soldier

Author: Sanzo
Title: Adieu, soldier
Characters/Pairing: Yunho and Jaejoong
Rating: PG 14
Form: One-shot (791 words)
Beta: Not beta-ed. Please forgive errors
Genre: Mild Angst
Summary: Years had passed.


It was way past midnight. Yunho exited the apartment, walking along the empty street in the land of the rising sun. Cold night air, tired eyes and body. Feet refusing to take a break, leading him into foreign corners of the structured town.

A loud bark of a dog as he passed a small shrine near a river made him stop. He was at a steady green metal bridge. Across the river he could see a distanced Skytree tower. He breathed in, fingers touching the cold green railing.

A country apart.

Yunho sighed, lifting his head to gaze at the dark sky. The phone in his pocket vibrated with new notifications and maybe, maybe even a message from his magnae. He chose to ignore those. He had spent enough time browsing through articles and news, pictures and videos. What happened over there, travelled fast enough through invisible connections into his small little device, reminding Yunho of him even if he had never forgotten.

It was here, where they said their goodbyes. It wasn't really mutual, but it was inevitable. Yunho remembered the big beautiful eyes shredding unstoppable lines of tears, his lips trembling, his teeth clenching. They stood facing each other until the sun rose, and the fair face of the man had turned so pale Yunho knew he had caught a cold. "I understand," the man had said as rays of sunrise fell on his face. Yunho remembered he smiled after that, with trembling lips still and wet eyes.

Yunho's pair of eyes gazed at the warm smile, his long thin fingers caressed the soft locks and wiped the tears. Yunho brought his feet closer to the smaller body and his ears listened to the song-like whispers of 'I understand' which were repeated like a broken record. Yunho's lips captured the trembling cold flesh, his nose smelled the sweetness scent of his perfumed skin. When Yunho withdrew his kiss, he let the man rest his head on his shoulder.

Yunho sighed at the remembrance. Years had passed, but as he looked along the bridge, he could still clearly see the back of the man walking away from him, right after he pulled his head off Yunho's shoulders.

Years had passed.

During those years, Yunho's mind still conjured his different facial expressions . Yunho's thin long fingers still felt the warmth of his face and hands, the softness of his lock and lips. Yunho's nose still caught the smells of his favourite perfume in airports, crowded rooms and busy streets. Yunho's ears still replayed the song he composed and whispered to his ears, using the voice as his lullaby to sleep. Yunho's lips still tasted the minty with hint of bitter cigarette flavour of his mouth.

Years had passed, and every single day, he lived with the memory of him.

Sometimes, Yunho started to think that maybe his eyes, ears, fingers, feet, lips, nose and shoulders, among all others, were never meant to give love like he wanted to the man again. Probably Yunho wouldn't be able to bring his feet to come back home into his arms, wouldn't be able to use his lips to kiss him, his fingers to caress the ever-changing colours of his hairs, his nose to nuzzle his skin, his ears to listen to his whispers, his shoulders to comfort him, his eyes to catch the developing smile on his face.

Separation was meant to be that way.

Missing.

Distant.

Away.

Gone.

Separation meant Yunho was sending him off. Like the time he walked away in the cold dawn with his back facing Yunho.

Yunho too, had started to accept the fact that though separated, his heart, refused to ever give him up. His heart felt, what never left. Never disappeared. Never missing. Never distant. Never gone. Probably, his heart conversely, was meant to be this way... never forgetting, never fading, never faltering.

He was going to be hidden even far away from Yunho. No more notifications of articles, news, pictures and videos; the virtual world Yunho had been relying upon secretly to harvest his longing. It feels more lonely tonight, Yunho sighed. Adieu soldier, I will follow suit into the world where you thought you'd be forgotten.

Forgotten? Yunho smiled to himself at the thought.

Years had passed.

6 years to be exact, and counting.

Yunho looked across the bridge, and as clear as the morning light that was shining through the green metal, Yunho could see the man named Kim Jaejoong reach the end of the walkway. He turned, eyes still weeping as he looked at Yunho and mouthed, 'wait.'

Two years would be too short to ever forget you--

Yunho smiled at the 'wait', mouthing 'see you'.

--even eternity, wouldn't be enough.

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keepcalmn_aktf
Mar. 30th, 2015 05:55 pm (UTC)

Why...? Nooooo!
My heart 💔
This was beautiful

miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:56 pm (UTC)
thank you =)
jaan30
Mar. 30th, 2015 06:15 pm (UTC)
T_T so sad... they never meet at all? but the love is still there OTL /cuddles up in the corner/ *sigh* yunjaeeee ;;

Thanks for sharing<3
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:57 pm (UTC)
thank YOU! =)
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miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:58 pm (UTC)
it's okay to skip unnie's angst story. Will post fluffy ones in the future so you can read them, meo =)
jaeparadise_22
Mar. 30th, 2015 07:24 pm (UTC)

This. Made. Me. Pour. Out. My. Suppressed. Feels.


Jaejoong, we, Cassies will patiently wait for your safe return.

miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:58 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
we sure will =)
mcarol85
Mar. 30th, 2015 07:49 pm (UTC)
Never forgotten! Two years will pass in a blink of an eye. Miss YunJae :(

Thanks for writing!
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:59 pm (UTC)
right you are, mimi. How are you? happy BELATED birthday >_
(no subject) - mcarol85 - Apr. 10th, 2015 10:41 pm (UTC) - Expand
jejehime
Mar. 30th, 2015 08:14 pm (UTC)
my poor heart T______T

Jaejoong, take care of yourself and make new friends. We will wait for your safe return with open arms <3

Thanks for sharing ^_^
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:59 pm (UTC)
thanks for reading =)
juniyunjae
Mar. 30th, 2015 09:21 pm (UTC)
two years
my yunjae
T___T
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 03:59 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
flidi
Mar. 30th, 2015 09:23 pm (UTC)
You made me cry. I sobbed , after i had read this.
This so perfect!
"Two years would be too short to ever forget you - even eternity, wouldn't be enough" - you spoke from my heart!
I hope that you write the happy end yet in your next story. From you we got used to it.
I am afraid that much Yunjae is an author will disappear.
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:00 pm (UTC)
will write happier ones in the future =)
naratian4eva
Mar. 31st, 2015 12:13 am (UTC)
Yeah, 6 years had passed and 2 years more are nothing.
He'll comeback for us, yunho. Healthy, happily, and loving you. :')
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:00 pm (UTC)
indeed. =)
dark_angle93
Mar. 31st, 2015 12:25 am (UTC)
Omg this is so beautiful.. we gonna wait patiently for 2 years for both of them.. hwaiting jj n jy 😍😍
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:00 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
tapzz
Mar. 31st, 2015 01:45 am (UTC)
so they never met at all!!! that's not fair :(
i hope 2 years passes away quickly and they meet soon.
the last part gave me hope though.
thank you for sharing :)
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:01 pm (UTC)
thanks for reading =)
r_1353
Mar. 31st, 2015 01:50 am (UTC)
Awww. This is heartbreakingly beautiful. I seriously could feel the emotions lying between the lines. :(
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:01 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
hra_1106
Mar. 31st, 2015 02:28 am (UTC)
;______; his is beautiful ,, hurt, yunho's longing for jae </3 , i hope in their real life, there's time they said "see you next 20 months" properly, by hugging, cuddling, kissing thank you for writing :)
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:01 pm (UTC)
thank you for reading =)
u_jeong
Mar. 31st, 2015 02:44 am (UTC)
author-ssi~~ how are you? I miss you.. :')
why you always write beautifuly??
2 years is nothing right.. I don't want to let him go thought.. *sobs*
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:02 pm (UTC)
i am fine dear. that's right, 2 years is nothing to us who always wait =)
lilaclie
Mar. 31st, 2015 03:00 am (UTC)
wow!
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:02 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
jaede10
Mar. 31st, 2015 03:37 am (UTC)
thank you for this..its hurts to see them like this..
ahh!!my YJ feels...:(((
today is the day...*sigh*
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:03 pm (UTC)
/hugss!/
shin_ah_mi
Mar. 31st, 2015 04:05 am (UTC)
we will wait
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:03 pm (UTC)
yes, we will.
neng2ovid
Mar. 31st, 2015 04:29 am (UTC)
Ouch ouch ouch and double ouch

Wow this is so heartbreaking
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:03 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
r_ny2chyzee
Mar. 31st, 2015 05:31 am (UTC)
omg an update from you T___T
so happy that you are still here :')
crying so much at the possibilty of this happening in real life, that they reall never met and had to suffer from the feeling, because the can never move on.. ;;___;;
i want them to meet, to reconcile, but above all i want them to be happy, wishing they wont suffer such thing in their life...
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:04 pm (UTC)
i want exactly the same thing too, dear. /hugs/
jejungoppa
Mar. 31st, 2015 05:46 am (UTC)
Ouch.... My heart hurts .... But it's beautifully written
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:04 pm (UTC)
thank you =)
eenmjejeyun
Mar. 31st, 2015 06:39 am (UTC)
My heart!! Hurt!
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:04 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
enteronly
Mar. 31st, 2015 07:17 am (UTC)
you don't know how happy I am when I see that you back with your fic.. ><
I don't even care if it just a one shot..
but sure I'm happy cuz I miss you a lot!!

and then.. still.. it's the same...
your fics still the same... it can squeeze my heart even just for a few words.. :')

I wish you can continue with your new fics... :)
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:05 pm (UTC)
thank you for your kind words. Happy to be missed :')
/hugs tight/
(no subject) - enteronly - May. 12th, 2015 04:56 am (UTC) - Expand
addicted_tvxq
Mar. 31st, 2015 08:19 am (UTC)
OMG I MISSED YOU SO MUCH.
MY FEELS FOR YUNJAE AND EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS FIC <3.
HEARTBREAKING..BUT BEAUTIFUL ;A;
WELCOME BACK, BB!
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:06 pm (UTC)
THANK YOU DEAR!!! /HUGS!!/
kas2umi
Mar. 31st, 2015 09:29 am (UTC)

Ah... my chest hurt right now...

miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:06 pm (UTC)
/hugs/
(Anonymous)
Mar. 31st, 2015 12:43 pm (UTC)
beautiful as always
I am vulnerable right now with all the things that had happened this past days and I just can't help And this fic triggers those tears that refused to fall. Nw, I have been crying pathetically. Thank you for this wonderful story.
miss_sanzo
Apr. 10th, 2015 04:07 pm (UTC)
Re: beautiful as always
thank you for reading, dear. /hugs/
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